2014---REBUKE THE DEVIL!

Jesus...this is not the way to start this shit off! New Year's Eve 2013 was nothing to engrave on the cave walls!
Snow storm. Blair being the stab in the back of the century (and disowning me...what a laugh!). Car stuck in a ditchy denty crevice on a lonely road at 12:15 in the morning.
I started 2014 off completely and utterly alone and it made me really sad.
The night didn't start off that way, though.  We had  a delish dinner at Beana's house with prime rib, lobster tail, asparagus, potatoes. Yum! The company was fine, too, as Jon and Emily were there and of course, Shanell. Blair had one of her over-dramatic baby hissy fits which she orchestrated in an effort to put a damper on the festivities  (whoa is Blair...always the victim...and always someone there to make excuse after excuse after excuse for her).
One thing that makes me ill is when people exclaim, "oh my gosh, I am so envious of your family. You guys are so tight knit." Nothing could be further from the truth. I used to lie to myself and agree with people. But no more. I am ready to admit that we are one of the most dysfunctional families I have ever seen.
Between Blair and my mother, my soul is crushed. I feel a sense of betrayal that puts knots in my stomach with the mere thought of the things that have happened.
Damn. I need sleep. Goodbye 2013. You sucked. Really bad. I guess that means that we can only go up from there, right?

Sadness.

2009...REALLY? That's the last time I blogged? Unbelievable that almost four years has "happened" since then and now.

I probably should stay committed to writing in here since the insurance has been terminated by those fake-ass, nepotistic, law-breaking, MEAP-cheating, backstabbing idiots. LOL...I think it is clear how I feel about that situation.

I am having a terribly melancholy day today. Obama is back in office which only adds to the sadness.

My daughter is away to college. My other daughter is in the hospital. Therefore, the only hugs I have access to are not available :( 

I spend most of my day having no one to speak to unless I plan a meeting for myself outside the house. When I do that, though, it costs a buttload for gas, so I try not to do it so often. 

Sitting in complete silence really makes one think. Most of the time, I have so much that I am thinking about that I cannot focus on any one thing..it just all swims around in there. It is reminiscent of the scrolling pictures on Windows Media. It just keeps swirling and swirling. Periodically, external forces are able to hit the pause button so that I am forced to look at just one issue. 

I. AM. SO. TIRED.

Wow. I guess time flies when you are killing yourself to make it as a human being! Sorry about the delay.Tons of stuff going on here. FCAT comes in 9 days. You really don't understand what that means unless you are a third grade teacher responsible for 18 students and getting them to not only read but comprehend. When they don't, they fail. If they don't pass the test they are held back. They are kept in third grade AGAIN. Nevermind if they have done well in every other aspect of third grade. This is a bit too much stress for me. On Friday I had to send home 11 letters of likely retention to students that I know will struggle with that test. It isnt a wonder why my chest is in pain.



I have a new friend that I talk to all the time. His name is Herman. Here is his picture:















He is a cute little gator that hangs out in the pond down the street. A couple of times I have just sat and talked to him. He doesn't say much in return, but I know he is listening. I would like to feed him a hot dog, but it is illegal in Florida to feed alligators. Can you imagine my story in front of the judge when I am trying to fight the fine for feeding an alligator a hot dog? Yeah, I just don't want to go there.











My business is coming along. I am in the process of a website and have gotten business cards, t-shirts, car magnets, etc. to advertise. Here is my business card:












I am building my portfolio (again) and was hoping to get some letters of recommendation from people I have created for (like, I don't know, my friend Sam Stark), but sadly, I haven't received any.
Did you know I am actually an officiant in Florida and can marry people? lol
I now pronounce you....hahaha


Last but certainly not least in the update world, I am about to become the new member of the Florida Paranormal Research Investigators. Yes, a GhostHunter! I am very excited about this. You can check out their website at http://www.floridaparanormalresearch.com/.
I am waiting for the callback interview. When I contact the other side, I will let you know :)

Now, on to other things that are far more important to me than any of these updates: my family.
Paige seems to really like it at the Sarasota Military Academy. She is doing well in bagpipes, has learned the Cadet's Creed and now can march to and sing the Army Song. She is really quite impressive. The instructor said he cannot believe how well she is taking to the pipes and that she will surpass his better students soon at this rate.
Lindsey is sad this week cuz her dragon died. Tibby has left us on February 15th. So sad, really. She cried her little head off. We ordered another Tibby today.

One of my favorite days is coming up...St. Patty's Day. Only 28 days. So little time to plan!

Adios my friends. Until the next time. As always...you rock my socks off and I look forward to chatting again soon.

Hugs and Kisses!

From tonight on I don't think I will be the same person. I am so sad that I can actually feel my heart breaking. I missed having Paige around for Thanksgiving. I didn't see her on Christmas Eve. She was away from me on New Years Eve and New Years Day and in a small two weeks she will be leaving me for good... going back to Michigan to go school. When she goes a piece of me will die. I love my children more than life. My life will never be the same.

It's 2009. Woot.

Happy New Year. I chuckle when I say that because I woke up so pissed off this morning. Last night upset me quite a bit. Every New Years Eve I look forward to having Don, the kids, and me together. That's what we've done for years. I spent several hours in the kitchen making little snacky type foods. We had Asti for us and non-alcoholic sparkling stuff for the kids. Again, this is what we've done for years.
Lindsey went to sleep at 11. She couldn't take it anymore...
Paige was gone (that makes three holidays this year that I haven't been with her--Thanksgiving, Christmas Eve, and New Years Eve)
The boys sat up in their room.
The food sat in the kitchen uneaten.
The drinks stayed in the fridge.
Dick Clark said Happy New Year.
I went to bed.
I didn't even get my ring-in-the-new-year-kiss from husband.

wOOt.

2 things that made me sad today....

One: My beloved sister, Blair, feels that I only wanted her to visit so that she would decorate Paiges room while she was here. She even told Mom that :( That made me sad.
Also, Sam, my longtime friend and crazy boss "attatched" a comment to my blog saying that I didn't take CPR last summer :(
Apparently she doesn't remember that not only did I take it, I was her very special helper/assistant so that we could make sure all participants completed the course in a "very timely" fashion.

One of the umpteen hundred reasons I love Paige...

Okay, so here she is...14 years old. 14 and 3/4 to be exact, but who has to be exact (OCD)?
What other 14 and 3/4 year old teenager do you know that would still take the time to make a "countdown chain" with their younger sibiling? I mean really! What other 14 and 3/4 year old teenager would ask if she could chop vegetables to help you make turkey noodle soup?
What other 14 and 3/4 year old teenager would actually seriously contemplate whether or not a flippin tree fell in the forest?

Paige.

I love that kid.