From tonight on I don't think I will be the same person. I am so sad that I can actually feel my heart breaking. I missed having Paige around for Thanksgiving. I didn't see her on Christmas Eve. She was away from me on New Years Eve and New Years Day and in a small two weeks she will be leaving me for good... going back to Michigan to go school. When she goes a piece of me will die. I love my children more than life. My life will never be the same.

It's 2009. Woot.

Happy New Year. I chuckle when I say that because I woke up so pissed off this morning. Last night upset me quite a bit. Every New Years Eve I look forward to having Don, the kids, and me together. That's what we've done for years. I spent several hours in the kitchen making little snacky type foods. We had Asti for us and non-alcoholic sparkling stuff for the kids. Again, this is what we've done for years.
Lindsey went to sleep at 11. She couldn't take it anymore...
Paige was gone (that makes three holidays this year that I haven't been with her--Thanksgiving, Christmas Eve, and New Years Eve)
The boys sat up in their room.
The food sat in the kitchen uneaten.
The drinks stayed in the fridge.
Dick Clark said Happy New Year.
I went to bed.
I didn't even get my ring-in-the-new-year-kiss from husband.

wOOt.